Zorya Utrennyaya Picture

“Sometimes when I look at you, I feel I'm gazing at a distant star.
It's dazzling, but the light is from tens of thousands of years ago.
Maybe the star doesn't even exist any more. Yet sometimes that light seems more real to me than anything.”

-Haruki Murakami

Zorya Utrennyaya, one of the Slavic guardian Goddesses, is the Morning Star. She opens the heavenly gates for the chariot of the sun. She protects warriors from death;
"Defend me, O maiden, with your veil from the enemy, from the arquebus and arrow..."

One of my three Muses.

I often fall back to this legend, both her and her sister (and depending on the version a third sister) yet Utrennyaya is my favorite. In mythology she is usually depicted fully armed and armored in her role as protector. I only see her as the morning star, and I need her light more than ever. I've depicted her in several ways over the years, even wrote a piece of music back in 2009: Here
I see her here in the pre-dawn, before the gates have been opened. My constant companion of my restlessness.

It is getting close to that now, well a couple of hours, it's about 3am. Usually doing a quick distracting paint like this eases my soul. It hasn't tonight, so I'll probably see her at work as I face the dawn. I am so tired of being tired, and feeling like shit. It's not going away or getting easier.

Dammit.

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