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XIII Days of Suicide


Adolf Hitler (April 20, 1889-April 30, 1945)

By the end of 1944, the Red Army had driven the last German troops from Soviet territory and began entering Central Europe. The western allies were also rapidly advancing into Germany. The Germans had lost the war from a military perspective, but Hitler allowed no negotiation with the Allied forces, and as a consequence the German military forces continued to fight. Hitler's stubbornness and defiance of military realities also allowed the continued mass killing of Jews and others to continue. He even issued the Nero Decree on March 19, 1945, ordering the destruction of what remained of German industry, communications and transport. However, Albert Speer, who was in charge of that plan, did not carry it out (The Morgenthau Plan for postwar Germany, promulgated by the Allies, aimed at a similar deindustrialization).
In April 1945, Soviet forces were at the outskirts of Berlin. Hitler's closest lieutenants urged him to flee to Bavaria or Austria to make a last stand in the mountains, but he seemed determined to either live or die in the capital. SS leader Heinrich Himmler tried on his own to inform the Allies (through the Swedish diplomat Count Folke Bernadotte) that Germany was prepared to discuss surrender terms. Meanwhile Hermann Göring sent a telegram from Bavaria in which he argued that since Hitler was cut off in Berlin, as Hitler's designated successor he should assume leadership of Germany. Hitler angrily reacted by dismissing both Himmler and Göring from all their offices and the party and declared them traitors.
After intense street-to-street combat, when Soviet troops were spotted within a block or two of the Reich Chancellory in the city centre, Hitler along with his new wife, Eva Braun committed suicide in the Führerbunker on April 30, 1945 by means of a self-delivered shot to the head while simultaneously biting into a cyanide capsule. Hitler's body and that of Eva Braun (his long-term mistress whom he had married the day before) were put in a bomb crater, partially burned with gasoline by Führerbunker aides and hastily buried in the Chancellory garden as Russian shells poured down and Red Army infantry continued to advance only two or three hundred metres away. He also had his dog Blondi poisoned some time before to test the poision he and Eva Braun were going to take.
When Russian forces reached the Chancellory, they found his body and an autopsy was performed using dental records (and German dental assistants who were familiar with them) to confirm the identification. To avoid any possibility of creating a potential shrine, the remains of Hitler and Braun were repeatedly moved, then secretly buried by SMERSH at their new headquarters in Magdeburg. In April 1970, when the facility was about to be turned over to the East German government, the remains were reportedly exhumed, thoroughly cremated, and the ashes finally dumped unceremoniously into the Elbe. According to the Russian Federal Security Service, a fragment of human skull stored in its archives and displayed to the public in a 2000 exhibition came from the remains of Hitler's body uncovered by the Red Army in Berlin, and is all that remains of Hitler; however, the authenticity of the skull has been challenged by many historians and researchers.
At the time of Hitler's death, most of Germany's infrastructure and major cities were in ruins and he had left explicit orders to complete the destruction. Millions of Germans were dead with millions more wounded or homeless. In his will, he dismissed other Nazi leaders and appointed Grand Admiral Karl Dönitz as Reichspräsident (President of Germany) and Goebbels as Reichskanzler (Chancellor of Germany). However, Goebbels and his wife Magda committed suicide on 1 May 1945. On 7 May 1945, in Rheims, France, the German armed forces surrendered unconditionally to the Western Allies and on 8 May 1945, in Berlin to the Soviet Union thus ending the war in Europe and with the creation of the Allied Control Council on 5 June 1945, the Four Powers assumed "supreme authority with respect to Germany". Adolf Hitler's proclaimed Thousand Year Reich had lasted 12 years.
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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

Hitler’s left hand – It is stiff as of when the Nazi soldiers salute Hitler. It symbolisez, Hail Hitler.

Nazi Flag – the red flag under Hitler’s arm with a Swastika emblem suggests that he lead the Nazi army during the first World War. Red also symbolizes suffering and pain. Compared to the table’s red cloth, the flag is ironed and also stiff, this would also suggest that at Hitler’s commands, there is a sense of discipline and tyranny.

Sketch pad – although unnoticeable, there is a brown sketch pad under the Nazi flag, it symbolizes and notes that, Hitler was once an artist, but his political career dominated his heart and so his passion for art was forgotten, and things of the past would’ve not lead to millions of deaths if he did not donned his position in politics.

Nazi Pistol – this is the exact same pistol that was reported that Hitler used to shoot himself and his wife on the head for their final act.



Benigno "Ninoy" Simeón Aquino, Jr. (November 27, 1932 – August 21, 1983)


"the Filipino is worth dying for." –Ninoy Aquino

Thought it may not appear as actual suicide, Ninoy Aquino has accepted his death when he asserted his willingness to suffer the consequences declaring, "the Filipino is worth dying for."
He wished to express an earnest plea for Marcos to step down and seek a peaceful regime change and a return to democratic institutions. Anticipating the worst, during a pre-return interview, he revealed that he would be wearing a bullet-proof vest, but he also said that "it's only good for the body, but for the head there's nothing else we can do". Sensing his own doom, he quoted during the interview that they (the journalists) "have to be ready with your camera because events will happen very fast...in a matter of 3 or 4 minutes it could be all over...and I may not be able to talk to you again after this..." In his last formal statement he said, "I have returned to join the ranks of those struggling to restore our rights and freedom through nonviolence. I seek no confrontation."
On August 21, 1983, while on his way to Manila, Ninoy was accompanied by several foreign journalists to ensure his safety or, in the least, record events for posterity in case rumors of a planned assassination proved to be true. Despite a convoy of security guards (all assigned to him by the Marcos government) and a contingent of 2,000 military and police personnel on the tarmac, he was fatally shot in the head as he was escorted off the airplane. Government investigators claimed that he was gunned down by Rolando Galman, who was immediately shot dead by the aviation security. No one actually identified who pulled the trigger, but Rebecca Quijano, another passenger, testified that she saw a man behind Aquino (on the stairs) point a gun at the back of his head, then there was the sound of a gunshot. Post-mortem analyses disclosed he was shot on the back of the head in close range with the bullet exiting at the chin, an angle which supports Quijano's testimony. Even more suspicions arose on who ordered the execution when Quijano described the man as wearing a military uniform.
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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

Another’s arm overpowering Ninoy – symbolizes that he has been overpowered by certain tyrants that he cannot do on what he’s supposed to do or say. But he does not cower by it, he thinks patiently, until it is time to act.

Ninoy Aquino Shirt – after his assassination, the Filipino people mourned his death, but after this, these same Filipinos wanted to take some action once and for all, they released shirts that had Ninoy Aquino’s face and which would later symbolize the triumph over a tyrant’s rule. That even though dead, he still made a difference.

The Nazi Flag over the Ninoy Shirt – this also symbolizes tyranny.

Pistol pointing at the back of Ninoy’s head – Recreates where Ninoy Aquino was shot.

The Overlapping of Adolf Hitler’s Sketchpad – this symbolizes that most men, have their own unique talents, that they could’ve used for good, but they ultimately succumb to power and the eventually fall. And it’s up to people like Ninoy to put a stop to these men, even though sometimes it looks futile.

Bullet at the table cloth – this is the reflection of the bullet fired onto the back Ninoy’s head which exited on his chin. The bullet also symbolizes murder or assassination.

Ninoy Aquino’s Glasses – Glasses suggests intelligence, although not all people who has and wears glasses are as intelligent as Ninoy, this suggests that his intelligence was used for the good, to be able to see the injustice and not to be ashamed of wearing it even facing one’s return to his land and ultimately to his death.



Nero Claudius Caesar Augustus Germanicus (December 15, AD 37 – June 9, AD 68)


In late 67 or early 68, Vindex, the governor of Gallia Lugdunensis in Gaul, rebelled against the tax policies of Nero. Virginius Rufus, the governor of superior Germany was sent to put down the rebellion. To gain support, Vindex called on Galba, the governor of Hispania Citerior in Spain, to become emperor. Virginius Rufus defeated Vindex's forces and Vindex committed suicide. Galba was declared a public enemy and his legion was confined in the city of Clunia.
Nero had regained the control of the empire militarily, but this opportunity was used by his enemies in Rome. By June of 68 the senate voted Galba the emperor and decared Nero a public enemy. The praetorian guard was bribed to betray Nero by the praetorian prefect, Nymphidius Sabinus, who desired to become emperor himself.
Accordind to Suetonius, Nero fled to Via Salaria, a suburb of Rome with his remaining friends. They urged him to flee, but he prepared himself for suicide. Reportedly, the praetorian guard entered to capture Nero just as he stabbed himself with the help of his secretary, Epaphroditus. Upon seeing the figure of a Roman soldier, he gasped "this is fidelity." It was said by Cassius Dio that he uttered the last words "Jupiter, what an artist dies in me!"
With his death, the Julio-Claudian dynasty came to an end. Chaos ensued in the Year of the four emperors
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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

Chalice of Flame – symbolizes the great fire in Rome

Ninoy Aquino Shirt overlapping – means that even at his leadership is questioned by many.

A Platter of Flesh – partly seen, the platter of flesh is served in a golden platter, with their own skin being served, this symbolizes that they are the only ones to blame for their own death.

Whip – the handle of a whip is seen, this symbolizes the tyranny and pain this ruler caused.

Roman Soldier’s Sword – this symbolizes the command he gave his secretary to kill him before Nero was caught.

Roman Soldier’s Helmet – this symbolizes and embodies Nero’s secretary, Epaphroditus.



Cleopatra (Greek: Κλεοπάτρα Φιλοπάτωρ; January 69 BC–November 30, 30 BC)

Anthony committed suicide, having been told Cleopatra (his daughter named after her mother) was dead. According to the doctor Olympus (an eye-witness), he was brought to Cleopatra's tomb and died in her arms. A few days later, on November 30, Cleopatra also died by snakebite. The ancient sources generally agree that she had two asps hidden in a fig basket so as she was eating she would never know when she would die. Her two handmaidens died with her. Octavian, waiting in a building nearby, was informed of her death, and went to see for himself.
Cleopatra's son by Caesar, Caesarion, was proclaimed pharaoh by Egyptians, but Octavian had already won. Caesarion was captured and executed, his fate reportedly sealed by Octavian's famous phrase: "Too many Caesars." Thus ended not just the Hellenistic line of Egyptian pharaohs, but the line of all Egyptian pharaohs. The three children of Cleopatra with Antony were spared and taken back to Rome where they were reared by Antony's wife, Octavia.
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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

A Platter of Flesh – partly seen, the platter of flesh is served in a golden platter, with their own skin being served, this symbolizes that they are the only ones to blame for their own death.

Whip – the handle of a whip is seen, this symbolizes the tyranny and pain this ruler caused.

Roman Soldier’s Helmet – this symbolizes his husband Anthony.

Grapes – Symbolizes Vanity and selfworth.

The Tip of a Bowl of Blood – symbolizes after her rule, it can be linked that Egyptians are also a part of Christianity’s sufferings.

Golden Cup of Vine – Symbolizes Royalty and vanity.

Egyptian Queen Crown – declaring her as Queen of Egypt and non other that Cleopatra.

Asp – the kind of snake which bit Cleopatra to her death.

+Artist’s Notes+

I used Wawi Navaroza’s picture as a reference for Cleopatra’s face. Wawi is the lead singer of the Gothic band, The Late Isabel.



Pontius Pilate (Latin: Pontius Pilatus)

Little enough is known about Pilate, but mythology has filled the gap. A body of fiction built up around the dramatic figure of Pontius Pilate, about whom the Christian faithful hungered to learn more than the canonical gospels revealed. Eusebius (Historia Ecclesiae ii: 7) quotes some early apocryphal accounts that he does not name, which already relate that Pilate fell under misfortunes in the reign of Caligula (AD 37–41), was exiled to Gaul and eventually committed suicide there in Vienne.
Other details come from less respectable sources. His body, says the Mors Pilati ("Death of Pilate"), was thrown first into the Tiber, but the waters were so disturbed by evil spirits that the body was taken to Vienne and sunk in the Rhône: a monument at Vienne, called Pilate's tomb, is still to be seen. As the waters of the Rhone likewise rejected Pilate's corpse, it was again removed and sunk in the lake at Lausanne. The sequence was a simple way to harmonise conflicting local traditions.
The corpse's final disposition was in a deep and lonely mountain tarn, which, according to later tradition, was on a mountain, still called Pilatus (actually pileatus or "cloud capped"), overlooking Lucerne. Every Good Friday, the body is said to reemerge from the waters and wash its hands.
There are many other legends about Pilate in the folklore of Germany, particularly about his birth, according to which Pilate was born in the Franconian city of Forchheim or the small village of Hausen only 5 km away from it. His death was (unusually) dramatised in a medieval mystery play cycle from Cornwall, the Cornish Ordinalia.
Pilate's role in the events leading to the crucifixion lent themselves to melodrama, even tragedy, and Pilate often has a role in medieval mystery plays.
In the Eastern Orthodox Church, Claudia Procula is commemorated as a saint, but not Pilate, because in the Gospel accounts Claudia urged Pilate to have nothing to do with Jesus. In some Eastern Orthodox traditions, Pilate committed suicide out of remorse for having sentenced Jesus to death.
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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

A Platter of Flesh – partly seen, the platter of flesh is served in a golden platter, with their own skin being served, this symbolizes that they are the only ones to blame for their own death.

Whip – the handle of a whip is seen, this symbolizes the tyranny and pain this ruler caused.

Bowl of Blood – Pontius Pilate is known for his “washing of hands” from deciding Jesus’ sentence. This would symbolize that, he did not want the blame for punishing an innocent man, who is only guilty and was only sentenced by the people. but having to change the water to blood, it suggests that, Pilate has paid and was blamed greatly for it, that the water that should cleanse him or give him innocence is now a nothing more than a sign of guilt and blood shed.

Pilate looking upward – having to regret what he has done, he seeks forgiveness to the heavens.

Red cape – a symbolism of bloodshed and power

Someone else’s elbow – symbolizes of someone overpowering him like the crowd and Caiphas.

The tongue of an Asp – this is a tongue of a snake called the Asp, this symbolizes that his mind was poisoned when he made his decision crucifying Christ.

Pillow – Pilate was disturbed of what he did to Christ that in his dreams he is able to see him, and blaming himself for what happened. And ultimately, his conscience overpowered him until he succumbs to take his own life for he could not bear what he did. The pillow ultimately symbolizes his subconscious or conscience.

+Artist’s Notes+

I used Hristo Naumov Shopov as reference for Pontius Pilate’s face and body armor. He is known as Pontius Pilate in Mel Gibson’s epic movie, The Passion of the Christ. I also paused and used the design of the whip in the same movie that was used to scourge Jesus Christ.



Sigmund Freud (May 6, 1856–September 23, 1939)


"The goal of all life is death." – Sigmund Freud

Freud was an intense smoker, and had to go through more than 30 operations during his life, due to mouth cancer. Eventually, he was so tired of the illness that he asked his doctor to help him with assisted suicide.

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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

Cigar on his hand – Freud smoked cigar everyday, and had cancer by doing so.

Pocket watch – Freud uses a pocket watch to hypnotize his patients and this symbolizes his occupation as a neurologist and psychiatrist.

Pen and pad paper – like most researchers would do, Freud brings about his pad and pen where ever he goes taking notes from patients and writing theories.

Syringe – when Freud was on his death bed, the pain caused by his cancer was far too great to endure. He then requested his doctor to help him commit suicide by injecting a dose of morphine.

Pillow – as a neurologist, Freud uses a pillow while he asks his patient who is being psychoanalyzed. This symbolizes the subconscious of a person and where psychoanalysis greatly refers to.



Judas Iscariot (died April AD 29–33)

There are two different Canonical references to the remainder of Judas' life:
+ The Gospel of Matthew says that, after Jesus' arrest by the Roman authorities (but before his execution), the guilt-ridden Judas returned the bribe to the priests and committed suicide by hanging himself. The priests could not return the money to the treasury so they used it to buy a plot of ground in order to bury strangers.
+ The Acts of the Apostles (1:18) says that Judas used the bribe to buy a field, but fell down, and burst asunder in the midst, and all his bowels gushed out. This field is called Akeldama or Field Of Blood. Acts 1 goes on to describe how his place among the apostles was subsequently filled by Matthias.
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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

Rope – symbolizes Judas’ hanging and form of suicide.

Praying Hands – acts as Judas repenting even through his death.

Silver Coins – What Judas was paid for turning Jesus Christ. Scattered, they symbolize that they were returned and it was irreversible even so.

Tip of a pen – symbolizes that Judas too, had written his own gospel.

Papyrus – Where Judas wrote his Gospel.

Case – Where the Gospel of Judas was found.

Paper – symbolizes that Judas too, had written his own gospel.

Edge of a frame – Like the next suicide, Judas too was misunderstood by many.

+Artist’s Notes+

I have another artwork of Judas, in masochism style located at this [link]



Vincent Willem van Gogh (March 30, 1853 in Zundert – July 29, 1890)

Van Gogh's depression deepened, and on July 27, 1890, at the age of 37, he walked into the fields and shot himself in the chest with a revolver. Without realizing that he was fatally wounded, he returned to the Ravoux Inn, where he died in his bed two days later. Theo hastened to be at his side and reported his last words as "La tristesse durera toujours" (French for "(the) sadness will last forever"). Vincent was buried at the cemetery of Auvers-sur-Oise.
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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

Cigar – Van Gogh smoked cigar as when he paints. This is to further indent that the subjectis Van Gogh.

Pen and Paper – Vincent always wrote to his brother Theo, about his life and his experiences.

Judas’ body overlapping – Van Gogh has experienced deception from a fellow artist, which would later be the reason why he cuts off a portion of his ear.

Someone’s hand on Van Gogh’s Shoulder – This would suggest at times partnership or support, though Van Gogh had that, it was really still hard for him to sell his paintings. thus the hand looks as if it’s putting more weight on to his shoulders rather that helping him.

Sun Flower painting – One of Van Gogh’s famous paintings, also an indention of his identity.

Frame – the frame though classical, it is sharp pointed, thus it really does not attract people to go near the work. They are repelled by the shell of the painting. His works are, on his time, misunderstood.

Sketchpad Case – this sketch pad looks old and dirty and when people see it, they are dismayed to view the works inside of it. Anther interpretation of being misunderstood.

Parts of a Cabinet – Van Gogh longed for women at his time, a cabinet sometimes symbolizes Salvador Dali’s work, The Anthropomorphic Cabinet.



Salvador Felipe Jacinto Dalí Domènech , Marquis of Pubol or Salvador Felip Jacint Dalí Domènech (May 11, 1904 – January 23, 1989), known popularly as Salvador Dalí

Gala died on June 10, 1982. After Gala's death, Dalí lost much of his will to live. He deliberately dehydrated himself—possibly as a suicide attempt, possibly in an attempt to put himself into a state of suspended animation, as he had read that some microorganisms could do. He moved from Figueres to the castle in Pubol which he had bought for Gala and was the site of her death. In 1984, a fire broke out in his bedroom[30] under unclear circumstances—possibly a suicide attempt by Dalí, possibly simple negligence by his staff.[16] In any case, Dalí was rescued and returned to Figueres where a group of his friends, patrons, and fellow artists saw to it that he was comfortable living in his Theater-Museum for his final years.

The Temptation of St. Anthony (1946) contained Dalí's symbolic elephant, Musee d'Art Moderne in Brussels
There have been allegations that his guardians forced Dalí to sign blank canvasses that would later (even after his death) be used and sold as originals.[31] As a result, art dealers tend to be wary of late works attributed to Dalí. He died of heart failure at Figueres on January 23, 1989 at the age of 84, and he is buried in the crypt of his Teatro Museo in Figueres.
Though he died of heart attack, he still has tendencies of committing suicide because of his frustration from his self dehydration.
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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

Salvador Dali Eyeing Sigmund Freud – these two had often cross paths, not in rivalry of course but more on understanding the human subconscious and inner most desires both psychologically and artistically.

Van Gogh’s Shoulder – Vincent Van Gogh came before Salvador Dali, works of Van Gogh had been famous for years now, and Dali is of course knows works of Van Gogh and might have been inspired by the artist.

Dali’s attire – Dali at his time he either wears either formal attire or those of a rich man.

Dali’s Mustache – this was like a tribute to the Mexican muralist and husband of Frida Kahlo, Diego Rivera

Dali’s Lion Crane – a symbolism of courage and leadership. He led a band of surrealist painters that became his students, and because his paintings are sometimes provocative, it is because he is not afraid to paint what his mind persists.

An Egg sprouting a flower – from Dali’s painting, Metamorphosis of Narcissus, this symbolizes masturbation, that there is beauty in doing so, since in that painting, it is held by a hand, that it was created by it. Dali seriously tackles inner longing for pleasure and sex. Metamorphosis of Narcissus is also the same painting where Salvador Dali and Sigmund Freud met for the first time in person, and Dali showed this to Freud to prove he was one of his pupils.

A melting clock – This is a reference to Dali’s painting, The Persistence of Memory ( Soft Watches ) this is symbolizes as to where ever these people are, that time does not really count or it is bent. Dali also expresses in his paintings, that for Americans, time counts and they are very much obsessed about it, and he laughs at this, and so when he painted time or a clock melting, he says that his painting was successful because the Americans bought it and loved that time was slow.

An empty glass – Dali didn’t drank water as some point in his life, because of his belief that he is immortal.

Papers – Dali wrote a lot when he’s painting, sometimes he puts his entires at the back of the artworks.

An Edge of a frame – this symbolizes as to being misunderstood.

Empty Cabinets – This is a reference to Dali’s painting, The Anthropomorphic Cabinet. In that painting, it embodies a woman. This means how Dali view women or a woman, that he searches for a lot of things and often finds nothing he wants in them. That is why, when his wife Gala died, he could not replaced the women he loved for another, not because he wanted just any other woman, but because he could not find any other woman he could be interested in.



Paul Jackson Pollock (January 28, 1912 – August 11, 1956)

Jackson Pollock (1912-1956) was a mid-western who got famous in New York and was considered as a model for his contemporaries. He died in a car accident when he was driving completely drunk, but as a character in this documentary says, this fact could be the ending of a long suicide because Pollock was a depressive alcoholic man.
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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

Liquor flask – Pollock is known to be an alcoholic, he carries with him a flask of hard drink.

Shot glass with hard drink – drinking makes him a mess at times, he can’t focus on his works, he only magnifies his problems and argues everyone around him.

Watermelon – the watermelon symbolizes a fruit with a fair skin but is totally soft inside. Just like Pollock, he seems to be a fair man, but when his work or his abilities are being criticized, he is emotionally unstable.

Spoon – the spoon may symbolizes a tool for eating, during Pollock’s last years, he became overweight.

Part of a Cabinet – like Salvador Dali, the symbolism for the cabinet is searching something in a woman, but ultimately failing to find it. Pollock found his love, it was with Lee Krasner, but through the years, he replaces he with a much younger woman, but in the end, he realizes there is no one other woman for her than Lee.

Empty cans with paintbrushes – in his prime, his cans are filled with paint, because people loved him. He was in demand. After years of seeing Pollock’s paintings, the people wanted new works and approaches, but Pollock failed to deliver. Hence his cans are now empty, the people have seen the best of Pollock.

Empty bottle of wine – though he was still rich, living his last days as a painter, he still drank liquor, but unlike in the past, he is unhappy. It does not suit him anymore, it is not enough to forget his problems. It’s only use in the end, was to make him numb, and drive him and a friend to their deaths.

+Artist’s Notes+

The reference material for Jackson Pollock’s face and attire was mostly from the movie, POLLOCK by starred and directed by Ed Harris.



Kurt Donald Cobain (February 20, 1967 – c. April 5, 1994)

Following a tour stop at Terminal Eins in Munich, Germany, on March 1, 1994, Cobain was diagnosed with bronchitis and severe laryngitis. He flew to Rome the next day for medical treatment, and was joined there by his wife on March 3.
The next morning, Love awoke to find that Cobain had overdosed on a combination of champagne and Rohypnol (Love had a prescription for Rohypnol filled after arriving in Rome). Cobain was immediately rushed to the hospital, and spent the rest of the day unconscious. After five days in the hospital, Cobain was released and returned to Seattle. Love later insisted publicly that the incident was Cobain's first suicide attempt.
On March 18, Love phoned police to inform them that Cobain was suicidal and had locked himself in a room with a gun. Police arrived and confiscated several guns and a bottle of pills from Cobain, who insisted that he was not suicidal and had locked himself in the room to hide from Love. When questioned by police, Love admitted that Cobain had never mentioned that he was suicidal and that she had not seen him with a gun.
On March 25, Love arranged an intervention concerning Cobain's drug use. The ten people involved included musician friends, record company executives, and one of Cobain's closest friends, Dylan Carlson. Former Nirvana manager Danny Goldberg described Cobain as being "extremely reluctant" and that he "denied that he was doing anything self-destructive." However, by the end of the day, Cobain had agreed to undergo a detox program.

On March 30, Cobain arrived at the Exodus Recovery Center in Los Angeles, California. On the afternoon of April 1, one of Frances Bean's nannies brought her to the facility for an hour-long visit with Cobain. That night, Cobain walked outside to have a cigarette, then climbed over a six-foot-high fence to leave the facility. He took a taxi to the airport and flew back to Seattle. The next morning, he stopped by his Seattle home and had a conversation with Michael "Cali" DeWitt, who lived at Cobain's house. Over the next several days, Cobain was spotted in various locations around Seattle, but most of his friends and family were unaware of his whereabouts.
On April 3, Love contacted a private investigator, Tom Grant, and hired him to find Cobain. The next day, Love filed a missing person report under Cobain's mother's name without her permission. She added in the file that Cobain was suicidal and was in possession of a shotgun.
On April 8, 1994, Cobain was discovered in the spare room above the garage (referred to as "the greenhouse") at his Lake Washington home by Veca Electric employee Gary Smith. Smith arrived at the house that morning to install security lighting and saw him lying inside. Apart from a minor amount of blood coming out of Cobain's ear, Smith reported seeing no visible signs of trauma, and initially believed that Cobain was asleep. Smith found what he thought might be a suicide note with a pen stuck through it beneath an overturned flowerpot. A shotgun, purchased for Cobain by Dylan Carlson, was found at Cobain's side. An autopsy report later concluded Cobain's death was a result of a "self-inflicted shotgun wound to the head." The report estimates Cobain to have died on April 5, 1994.
In the alleged suicide note, ostensibly written to Cobain's imaginary childhood friend "Boddah", Cobain quoted a lyric from Neil Young's song "My My, Hey Hey (Out Of The Blue)": "It's better to burn out than to fade away." Cobain's use of the lyric had a profound impact on Young, who recorded portions of his 1994 album Sleeps with Angels in Cobain's memory. The note also invoked the name of Queen frontman Freddie Mercury, who Cobain felt could revel in the adoration of an audience in a way that Cobain himself could not.
Cobain's body was cremated, with one third of his ashes scattered at the Namgyal Tibetan buddhist monastery in Ithaca, New York, another third in the Wishkah River, and the rest left in Love's possession.
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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

Kurt Cobain’s head – when Cobain was found his head has severed similar damages as to that of portrayed.

Shotgun – Cobain used a shotgun to end his life.

Heroin – though Cobain used heroine as another suicide attempt, it didn’t really end his life, thus he used the shotgun as a final option.

Spoon – in the processes of taking heroin, you will need a spoon to melt it.

Syringe- you will need a syringe to feed the heroine in your body.

Pills – pills are also used in taking heroine.

Acoustic guitar – this symbolizes that, though Kurt Cobain play grunge music, he is sentimental with what he plays, that, his soul is really in his music.

+ Artist’s Notes +
There is a Suicide dispute about Kurt Cobain really committing suicide. You can find the news about it on the internet. And I haven’t really used heroine before, that’s why there might be flaws on the meanings I gave out on heroine.



Sen no Rikyū (1522 - April 21, 1591) Also known as Sen Rikyū.


Although Rikyū had been one of Hideyoshi's closest confidants, because of crucial differences of opinion and other reasons which remain uncertain, Hideyoshi ordered him to commit ritual suicide (Seppuku), which he did at Hideyoshi's Jurakudai residence in Kyoto on February 28, 1591, at the age of seventy
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Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

Japanese tea - Sen no Rikyū serves tea for the Japanese emperors and has mastered the art of serving tea.

Japanese Tea pot – Sen no Rikyū serves tea for the Japanese emperors and has mastered the art of serving tea.

Japanese Water gallon – this is where the hot water is being boiled after which, filtered and then served as tea.

Guitar – as an entertainer, Sen no Rikyū has performed for his guests using not the acoustic guitar, but the Japanese guitar. This reminds us of that.

Seppuku sword – what Sen no Rikyū used to cut his belly open.

Someone else’s body - the idea of service is thinking of someone else and serving them.

+ Artists’ Notes +

Seppuku (Japanese: "cutting the belly") is a form of Japanese ritual suicide by disembowelment.
Seppuku is also known as hara-kiri and is written with the same kanji as seppuku but in reverse order with an okurigana.



YOU ( born ?????? - ?????? )







Skinned body – Expresses great amount of pain and suffering, mental physical and emotional that is unbearable.

Depressed expression – this means that mostly if not all suicides tendencies are of the depressed individual, that they have a problem or they are giving up on their lives.
Blade on a plate – this symbolizes one of the most commonly used tool on suicide, the blade. And it is on a plate, because suicidal persons are more likely to loose their appetite when depressed and the only thing that they can think of sometimes is to die.
Jar of water – symbolizing that people with suicidal tendencies who loose their appetite only drink water, either on huger strikes or just plane not wanting to eat. At some cases, they do not drink water at all.
Japanese serving scoop – this is related to the previous suicide, Sen no Rikyu, that he serves others and put them in front of him, rather than himself. And related to YOU, suicides are prone to be more on being served, or pampered when depressed, just to take things away off their mind. But this cannot be a total solution for every person who has a suicidal tendency.

+ Artists’ Notes +

You might be thinking, why, YOU? Well it is you. Who ever is looking at this artwork or at this piece, is basically a mirror of one’s self, that we all have been depressed and have thought of killing our selves / taking our own life. Either have thought of or will be in the future. One might argue that, he loves his life and the people around him too much that there isn’t a way that this’ll even run through his thoughts. But you see, that is where one would be wrong. The more we value life, the more we love the things that are around us, is the more we are prone to committing suicide. Why? Because if these things we love dearly are gone, or one by one taken away from us, we realize that there is no more reason to live. It’s quite ironic, that, if you-want-to-live-today, might transform to be a you-want-to-kill-yourself-tomorrow just because you dismiss the fact that the things that matter to you now, will be gone some time in the future.

To dismiss the fact that you would be one day committing suicide, is like saying that you will not die. Sure, people die all the time, but not by suicide, and that’s just how things in this life works. Well, I can’t really say that I can predict it, but it’s safer to say that, YOU, would consider of committing suicide, than to say that you will not do it, and be trapped in the end depressed as hell committing it.

It is as if I’m saying this that I am sure you would be committing suicide. Well I am. And I’ve got twelve reasons as to why you would. See all the prominent people who already did it? The ones who I already painted? Well, these people are from different nationalities, different beliefs, different problems, and different times. They are either successful or failures, they are known or unknown, they are men or woman, they are people who have reasons to stay alive and fight or they have all the reasons to commit suicide. What I’m pointing at is, who ever you are, you cannot possibly just say that you won’t be taking your own life, that you are not human not to even think of it. We are all just human, we have errors and short coming and even perfect at the things we do, but we still have problems who ever we ware. And death is just doing his job and the people who take their lives aren’t really people to look down on. They are people who had lived ordinary and extraordinary lives, but in the end, the gave up on their life, not because they have seen all that their life has been, they just simply accepted death and want it to come sooner than most people.


+XIII Suicides Daily Update+

April 6, 2007 – Suicide I – Adolf Hitler [link]
April 7, 2007 – Suicide II – Benigno Aquino Jr. [link]
April 8, 2007 – Suicide III - Claudius Nero [link]
April 9, 2007 – Suicide IV - Cleopatra [link]
April 10, 2007 – Suicide V - Pontius Pilate [link]
April 11, 2007 – Suicide VI - Sigmund Freud [link]
April 12, 2007 – Suicide VII - Judas Iscariot [link]
April 13, 2007 – Suicide VIII - Vincent Van Gogh [link]
April 14, 2007 – Suicide IX - Salvador Dali [link]
April 15, 2007 – Suicide X - Jackson Pollock [link]
April 16, 2007 – Suicide XI - Kurt Cobain [link]
April 17, 2007 – Suicide XII - Sen no Rikyu [link]
April 18, 2007 – Suicide XIII - YOU [link]



The Aftermath Thesis Exhibition Opening Photos of the XIII SuicideS –

Exhibited at the Beato Angelico Gallery UST Espana Manila + February 28 – March 10, 2007


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